Turn up the love

Didn't go to work today cos I'm dying on exhaustion.

Perhaps I'm really not cut out for work.

Every morning I lay in bed for ten minutes at least, trying to think of an excuse to not go to work.

And if all fails, 

I finally get up to prepare for work.

Which makes me pretty late by then.

It made me realise how important it is to find a job you really love.
If not, half your life would be spent being unhappy, resentful and dreading what you do for most of your day.
Looking at others having your dream job and living the perfect life.
And that would really suck the living soul out of people.
 

Had my cousins from Malaysia over recently for a bit and we've been treated lavishly for a couple days with sumptuous food.

No pictures cos I attacked food once it's dished out.

How do people resist their appetite and remember to snap pictures of their food,

  I will never get it.

My birthday is in two days time and I'm treating my family to Pepperoni's.

Absolutely love that place, a true classic Italian restaurant.

I have no idea what I want for presents yet and as materialistic as this sounds,

cash is such a good present.

Cos firstly, I am quite broke.

And secondly, I get extremely disappointed with poor presents.

One year has flown past just like that.

Crumbling feet

I've a huge problem that irks me to no end.

As I've mentioned before, my feet is killing me from all the travelling, standing, working etc.

BUT

Now the pain has reached up to my entire legs, even my thighs feeling extremely sore when I walk.

Oh the agony.

Nails I did for $5 in preparation for Christmas.

Looks way better in real life and the colours are so festive.

Me being stupid forgot that I do work as a barista and after one day of work, half the colours came off cause I kept rinsing blenders and coffee makers to make coffee/smoothies.

 

 Dinner at Buckaroos. ( Similar branch also known as sunset grill )

It is the only one place that sells the shittiest main dishes. 

Expensive and extremely terrible food really.

But the sides are freaking awesome. It's so weird right?

Clam chowder, onion rings and calamari are the best in Singapore there.

Also, I made ten boxes of oreo cheesecake for Christmas for all my loved ones.

Spent an entire day baking it.

And the end result!

Met the girls for a short while after work for Christmas exchange.

Time with them may be short but it's so lovely and sweet just catching up with them.

 

Have a merry christmas everyone!

Let it be

Absolutely hate it when I go out of the way to do something or make an effort 

and it goes completely the other way.

Don't anyone see the effort?

I might as well stop trying already.

My feet has been killing me these days, even with flats and slippers.

Is it the way I walk?

I'm limping around because even weight on the sole of my feet causes unbearable pain.

Hyped for Christmas cos I'm having a first eve pajamas party.

Like everyone literally has to arrive in their pajamas or risked being kicked out hahaha.

Till then, Merry Christmas everyone!

Get your freak on

Sorry for the lack of updates, it has been hecticccccccc.

Anyway, I am 85% healed from my wisdom tooth extraction.

Healing process was very manageable, just pretty annoying when I couldn't eat my favourite foods or cannot conceal the yellow bruises on my cheeks.

Had my stitches removed today and that was more painful than the entire extraction in my opinion.

 

Been busy working as a barista at Briccocafe.

Traveling to the Airport for work is shit but the company is rather cool and it makes everything 

so much more bearable.

This is the some of those I work with and also from NYJC.

The funny thing is we barely know each other in JC and only got closer towards the last one, two months before A levels.

And right now, we become closer everyday and they're one of the closest nyjc friends I stay in contact at the moment.

 

Dunkin Donuts is right behind Bricco Cafe and I have been satisfying my daily 

craving for these pleasures well.

My hair has faded, it's hardly an ombre anymore :'(

Wisdom tooth surgery

So on Thursday, I went for my wisdom tooth surgery after work at tooth angels.

Had to extract four wisdom tooth and two of them were slightly tricky as they were already almost horizontal and impacting my other tooth.

Firstly, I want to make clear that I am probably a person who fears pain more than anything in this world.

Injections, a fall, a paper cut and I whine like no tomorrow.

And everyone has been scaring me about wisdom tooth extractions.

Some of them only extracted two and couldn't talk for a week and felt extreme pain.

My colleague even told me how he was about the pass out because of the pain during surgery and after.

So trust me, I was fucking scared and dreading it.

Despite everything, I want to say I love my doctor, who is one of the most well known for wisdom tooth extractions in Singapore.

Dr Mark Chia.

I felt no pain at all during the whole surgery.

And injections were nothing more than just slight pressures.

NO PAIN AT ALL.

Dr Chia was like "testing, testing" and I expected to feel a burst of pain during injections and when he said " done ", I was shocked cos I barely felt anything.

He injected quite a number of times cos he found
more nerves in the midst of surgery.

The nurses were all extremely attentive and consoled me throughout the whole process, explaining to be in detail of what I should expect.

Was shaking and trembling the whole way, even on the dental seat although I felt zero pain.
COS EVERYONE SAID IT WAS SUPER PAIN AND I WAS EXPECTING THE PAIN TO COME.

The sounds of drilling were driving me insane though it was painless and I kept scaring myself with images in my head.

 Dr Chia covered my eyes the whole process and gave me a blanket.
I think it would even be possible to fall asleep during the surgery if I were calmer.

What I was even more shocked about was I only felt him working on two teeth and he said he was done.

I was like "ALL FOUR?"

 Dr chia said: "Yeah, fast right? "

If you hear everyone out there, even my brother, two of his wisdom tooth extraction took an hour and a half.

Another friend of mine took one hour on each tooth.

I would have passed out if my surgery took that long.

But Dr Mark Chia was fast and efficient.

Four of my wisdom tooth extraction only took 30-35 mins in total.

FAST RIGHTTTTTTTT

 AND NO PAINNNNNNNN

Okay, Day 3 after surgery today and the healing process has been going smoothly.

On the first night, I was still dripping blood but pain was manageable.

Day 2 and 3: Pain was barely there, I was just very sore and my face tripled in size due to swelling, which is extremely normal.

So right now, I'm feeling no pain but just hating the swelling and how ugly I look right now.

Keeping my fingers crossed that swelling goes down today so I can work tomorrow.

Yup, this sums up everything and I highly recommend anyone to extract your wisdom teeth there.

A little steep in price and in town area, but nevertheless, 

it's so worth it because I am not drowning in pain now.

About $800-$900 per tooth.

And I did it at The Central, Clarke Quay.

Tooth Angels.

Half dead

On hiatus for a while cos I just extracted 4 wisdom tooth in one shot.

And it is pain and torture on a whole different level.

A post will be up about the whole entire surgery.

Getting a new Ombre hair tomorrow! 

Stay tuned

Burning love

 

 

Missing in action for quite a while bcos there are a million things to do when you're a free bird.

I can never feel guilty doing the same things I did during A level period like watching movies till 5am in the morning.

Quick update:

Been eating so much that my weight gain is extremely visible.

It saddens me.

Found a job at Changi Airport with a fun bunch of new friends.

It's a new Italian restaurant in the restricted sector of the departure hall.

I hope it's manageable.

 

Just found myself a tuition job that pays decently.

 

Right now, my eyes are on money and company from people only.

No money, no talk, no fun.

Touch rugby chalet and my wisdom teeth extractions are coming up.

Totally offsets my excitement for chalet with my fav girls.

Stop smile and breathe

Even the closest friendships can be broken with one simple mistake.

One selfish act.

One impulsive move.

Couple days ago, I was going through one of the worst nights of my life.

Lacking the one I needed most and just realising that my close friend has betrayed me with his selfish act.

I was so dissapointed and angry that night, no words could say how.

But even the biggest wrong moves can be amended and made up for with the right amount of effort.

And I'm glad you did, surprising me with a bouquet at my house.

Thank you for making the effort to show how sorry you were and how much you treasure this friendship!

Milestone

LET ME JUST SAY WITH UTTER JOY:

THE DOG DAYS ARE OVER.

CHEERS TO THREE FUCKING YEARS IN HELLHOLE.

I AM DONE STUDYING FOR AT LEAST, QUITE A WHILE.

Y'know when I said I was clocking 12 hours of sleep?

I clock like 16 hours of sleep a day now and I still wake up exhausted.

It makes me completely stoned but it's okay.

 Centre parting me.

There is soooooooo much I wanna do that I think I should list down.

Most importantly, I need a job. High paying job so I can travel the world during this period with friends.

Hoping to join a touch rugby club to lose some fats too.

& bake.

& dance.

Caught Pitch Perfect with Taufiq and it was perfect.

Fat Amy is so funny in the show, and in real life.

I love her.

And screw everyone who told me Ah boys to Men is SOOOOO GREAT AND SOOOO FUNNY.

It is not.

Do not watch it.

It's the worst show I've watched this year.

I've lost complete faith in local media industry.

Finally, check out my earrings that a lot of my friends have been raving about.

Gold studs with butterfly imprints.

It cost only 50cents.

So many dumb ways to die

This is wayyyyyy too cute.

I know it sounds lame and I'm not into such cutesy stuff usually but this is really entertaining.

It's played on train stations in Aussie,

and a million times better than our dumb adverts warning of bombs or the screeching ''Train is cominggggggg"

Sunburst

 4 days to the sweetest freedom but I've yet to face the toughest papers yet.

Been feeling like CRAP past few days.

I need to stop sinking into depression over nothing.

Lately I've been thinking about something drastic.

Not like I'm super serious nor near 90% confirming but....

I'm thinking of cosmetic surgery.

Told a few of my friends a while back and they were flabbergasted. 

I wake up and look at myself and I realise I have tons of things to fix.

So utterly unsatisfied with how I look.

I've even narrowed down to what I need to fix haha

It's nothing like silicon boobs or liposuction or a nose job or anything like that.

I guess pretty minor stuff like.. deeper double eyelids?

Kelly has done it and she looks damn good with perfect double eyelids and ever since I saw hers, I wanted to get it too.

Someone like you

Three revelations about myself today:

 

1. I'd pay very good money for an Adele concert, she's a legend.

 

2. I can't stand lame boys. Likes so fucking lame that there's no words for it nor even a polite way to reply that person.

 

3. We almost had it all.

Accidentally in love

Met up with Marcus and it's amazing how fast time has passed.

I can't believe I've known him for 6-7 years?

Okay I feel old now.

He treated me to Itacho Sushi and it's probably the nicest sushi I've eaten though a bit pricey.

Headed to salted caramel afterwards.

It  was nice catching up.

He's the same, yet different.

I can't really place the exact words for it.

Headed to Fel's house for a mini gathering with the girls.

Although not all came, it's probably the best day I had in November.

We're just a bunch of many different personalities but when you put us together, we're a bunch of crazies.

Love y'all :')

Dead tired & I slept like a log.

Couple days when I fell off my bed, I felt like all my bones shattered.

I still feel that way now.

Hq ane me Indian style

 

 Zu and me prepping for Deepavali

Nautical

Picture of me and fel studying during late nights in school.

I was waiting for her to go dinner, she didn't want to go until she solved her math question.

Off to this bbg house tomorrow for festival of lightssssssssss

Girl on fire

Always grateful to everyone who supports me silently, who has my back constantly, through all my tough times.

I've been sleeping like a log for past three days.

My periods makes me inhumane.

I clock at least 18 hours of sleep each day, I don't even catch up on worldly events.

Heartwrenching

It's halfway through my A's.

Which sucks more?

The feeling of overwhelming insecurity after a hard paper,

or the glee on an easy paper where you had careless mistakes and know your A will be taken away from you because of the bell curve.

The bell curve is a double edged sword.

Did I just see my law dreams vanish?

Perhaps, very possibly.

It makes me very sad.

NSRCC

 The girls except the birthday twins!

Guys and girls!

Jocelyn!

 Birthday Girl Marilyn!

 With Jocelyn and birthday May!

 Atwell & Jocelyn!

 

 Javier!

 Rahul!

 Group shot plus birthday twins!

 Wei wei!

Pretty Alicia & Jocelyn!

And that sums up the last party I attend before A levels which also happens to be in two days.

Funny how the heart can be deceiving

Ever wonder about what he's doing

How it all turned to lies

Sometimes I think that it's better,

to never ask why.

Where there is desire,

there is gonna be a flame.

When there is a flame,

 someone's bound to get burned.

But just because it burns, 

doesn't mean you're gonna die.

Gotta get up and try, try, try.

Last piece missing

I'll always have your back if you'll have mine.

Ten days away from A levels

Ten days left, and I've got to say.

I have not felt the urgency at all.

I wonder if I'm ever going to feel it.

Others have probably started studying since 7am.

Well it's eleven and I've just woke.

I've just toasted a chicken bun by accident, forgetting that buns are supposed to be steamed.

I've finished watching Gossip Girl Season 6 Episode 2, which sucked big time.

And about to watch Episode 3.

While everyone is at Halloween, I'm stuck here in this liminal position.

Only food makes me happy now.

Perfection is an illusion

Just deleted the previous post cos it's some meaningless rant.

I'm conflicted.

I'm beyond conflicted.

On the side note, I'm not happy with X factor's final 16.

Conquer yourself

 Graduation pictures as promised. 

First up, touch rugby girls whom I have a special connection with.

Every one of them made JC more bearable.

 YingJie

HuiTing

Michelle, who is also my classmate and favourite girls in school.

Yanlin, the best centre I play with.

 Hq, my study buddy and another favourite girl in school.

Cherynn, one of the most spontaneous girls ever. 

All of us

Zu, who loves snacks like I do.

Hazmie

Class Clique

Jon, one of the funniest guys I know.

CJ

Gifford, the most humble honour roll student in NY.

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Kenneth who is extremely horny.

Isaac, another honour roll student who is too damn smart.