Fly me to the moon

I know you're going to see this and I hope you clearly get my point.
I can't believe I wasted like, half an hour talking to you nicely last night, about one hour pursuading you to call, and believing you and your false promises.

I see it now. You'll never change.
And I dont give a shit anymore about you so please don't ever talk to me again.

If you have the least bit of conscience and somewhere in your heart, I still matter, then make something work in your life at the very least.
If not, I'm perfectly fine with you fucking up everything, really.

Feel so stupid for ever feeling concerned about you, you don't deserve it. You need to wake up bcos everyone don't deserve to have their efforts wasted on you.

One day, you'll look back and know I'm right.

Little House

AMANDA LEO, THIS SONG IS LOVELY AND SO ARE YOU. SING IT FOR ME TOMORROW.

Killing me softly

Everyone who is not going to school, please don't talk to me cos I'm going through the first hour of a week of hell in school right now.

School makes me awfully sad really. I decided that I have the worst hair in the universe this morning and pinned everything up. It's so irritating that my fringe is too long to be left down, too short (several strands) to be pinned up.

Okay weekends was FAB.
Except that I have a hugeugly pimple below my nose, argh.



Tried the new Cheesy Bacon Burger in Carls Junior & IT IS SEX IN YOUR MOUTH, LITERALLY.
Caught Going the Distance, it was so-so.

Sunday was good cos I wasn't kicked out of dance and allowed to take exams coming in two months. I haven't danced in forever.

Something special around my neck now makes me feel on the top of the world.

Red & Yellow

Cherry Almond

I feel empty and I've walked around the house aimlessly at least a million times.

I hate this feeling. I hate feeling weak.
I wish there was something you could do, or maybe I could do, to make everything easier for me.

I want to tell everyone I'm so fucking scared of the future, that I might not make through J1 this year, that I can't live saying goodbye to you in January, that I'm not happy with myself at all, that I am not strong enough.

The only thing that is making me happy is studying with Amanda @ the airport tomorrow.

Friends?

The thing about friends is really weird.
It takes you a really long while, with crazy amounts of obstacles along the way and a hell lot of distancing, to find out who really cares.

& sometimes, the truth hurts.


Just deleted an entire long paragragh, I dont even know why.

The main thing is, I have the guts to say I've never ever done anything to harm you, girl.

Ten things I want to say to ten different people right now

For the ten people I'm thinking about right now, It could be you.

1. D: You're really so sweet at times & sometimes I can't help but feel so guilty for disappointing you.

2. Z: I've always loved you as a great friend and I miss all the times we used to have but they seem so far now. I feel like you dislike me but that's okay cos I know you're real nice. I just wished you liked and cherished me.

3. B: Needless to say, you're sensational, fabulous, sweet, charming, crazy, lovely and everything nice.

4. S: You're so fucking far from me now and I guess it's payback cos I neglected you these months. I hope you miss me still.

5. X: Sometimes I still miss everything about us and I wish you were here. I wish I took back some of the things I said and did and gave you more. I know you dont miss me, but at least, I do.

6. R: I wonder how you are.

7. A: You are the most beautiful person on the Planet and only the luckiest guys deserve you. I really hope you channel your misery into strength.

8. B: I absofuckinglutely hate you. Period.

9. S: I know I'm the worst friend ever, let's finally meet up soon!

10. B: You're cute but that's all.