Lousy Photographers

My title tells it all.

Bats

Suddenly, I am afraid.
Everything feels unreal.

Everything i'm not

Our one and only successful group shot!

Town with Natalie, Malcolm and Shijie was good. Was literally Natalie's day cos she managed to finish all her cny clothes shopping in just one day! Nothing caught my eye but I impulsively splurged on this heels which I immediatey regretted after paying :< Anyway, I love going out with these very gentlemanly guys cos they carry everything! Hehe.

Met Shaiful later on for a bit and I spent the night massaging my numb feet. Heels kills.

Unravel

I've had enough of the hair issues on my tags & like I've said before, I'm deleting whatever I do not wish to see on my blog.
I just cannot believe there are people that idiotic in the world who go round peoples' blogs and comment continuously on what, hair? Ask to meet up to compare whose hair would turn out better? This is a joke and total bullshit.

Guest, if my hair is such an eyesore to you, please dont make it a habit to be a daily visitor of my blog. Get lost, I couldnt care less about you. And dont you dare insult my friends, chicken behind a screen.

Ok, I wont let these pathetic morons ruin my day. Town today = more pics! :>

War within your hearts

I know I've been very late on posts but its real hard cos all my coms crashed at home and I have very lousy internet connection when I use D's lappie to occasionally come online.

Have been going out basically everyday to make the most of my time left before school starts next week.*stabs self*

Chalet earlier this week was great. Not much people brought proper cams so not much pics at all :(
I spent a bomb but it was worthwhile. From Mahjong to Daidee to mopping dirty floors to cooking fried rice for mates to Karaoke to heart to heart chats to bbq to steam bath..















I will remember all of 406 :)

Yesterday was heartwarming and heartbreaking at the same time.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
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Oh well.

Never push your luck

Oh god. I am so pissed right now that I literally feel myself boiling with rage.
& one of the reasons is that my internet connection fails every 5 minutes. Mad frustrating.
I need to get everything off my chest in the next post, screw you pathetic fuckers. Yes, you know its you.

To those who are feeling paranoid now, no its not you I'm pissed with.

Pushing Daises

My heart is twisted, my mind is wild.
14 hours to the release of results. Someone, save me.

'Huh? I'm playing firecrackers with my friends now'

So yesterday I met Natalie, Shaiful and Shijie to discuss about the class chalet. So far so good, I guess. Got really bored and decided to play sparklers at some playground to relieve old childhood days. Pics hereeee:


















喜怒哀乐! LOL @ Shaiful
The sparklers sucks cos it was smoking so much, but it was a good night spent! :>

Euphoria

Yesterday was a day out with all my girls and a very very very fattening day indeed. Had Mos burger with Zhiting and Cris, followed by Chippy's (Calamari Rings bestttt!) and Starbucks. Shared gossip with each other and some were really amazing facts cos all of us had different links of friends. But girls just love bitching sessions, dont we? :>

Luyi and Yuen came along and we had Astons. I feel crazy fat now and am contemplating whether to go swimming alone or not. Travelling to the condo sucks but rotting on bed sucks as much.

& several people have been telling me I look very tired and dispirited(?). Whats ironic is that I do not have a job (sadly) and spend most of my days lying in bed.

Spells

I'm feeling claustrophobic, after hours of simply lying on bed doing nothing. This is sick, to think of everything until I dont even know what to think anymore.

I get insecure when I see 1kg of sour sweets that I got as a birthday present getting lesser each passing day. I'm sad bcos its the only thing that makes me smile now.
To make things worse, my coms crashed so I totally cannot use msn or anything. Left with a lousy & super laggy com to surf websites, fuck that.

2009

2009 just flew by, so fucking fast. But I've got to say, it was the best year throughout my whole secondary school life. Many things happened, people changed, I've changed too.

I've hurt people, many this year. Sometimes I look back, not believing what I've done, feeling tinges of regret and remorse. Even till the end of the year, I was still hurting some over my decisions in life. But everything happens for a reason. I am genuinely sorry to the people that were hurt but I also do know of those I've tried to protect but there were misunderstandings along the way and the finger is pointed back at me. I'm not a perfect person, in fact, I'm so far from that but I do know what I've done and have not.

And because of that, I've lost people too. Really do pains the heart to think back but I will always remember those who have had an impact on my life some way or other. Whats left are great memories which I can look back and smile at a few years down the road.

I've loved much. But love is just a lie for now, nothing worked out for long. And so its back to loved and lost.

I've been hurt. Life is being pulled by little strings of god. People pass remarks, judge me, find ways to hurt me so bad but I survived it all. And it has made me stronger than before so people fail to break me with the harshest words bcos I've heard it all before.

I've smiled cos I forged new friendships and grew closer to certain people. From heart to heart talks to crazy laughter with my girls, from concerns when I'm down to surprising me with sour sweets to make my day, from life advices to shoulders to lean on when I break and from bickers with Zhiting to 'sorry' notes on post-its. Nothing beats having all my close friends with me cos they're simply the best <3

I've learned more about life and people from being down and out. Picking yourself up from the mess is the greatest feeling. My family has been slightly better this year cos my grades have improved so much. From bottom 5 for the first 3 years of school to one of the top 10 in class for the last year, thats mass acheivement :) I just need great O level results to end it off all nicely.

I think I'm ready for 2010. I had an awesome birthday with the greatest friends(pics up soon!) so its a very good start.
This year, I need to find and cherish myself more plus fix my piorities before I lose more people than I can handle.

2010 better be a kickass year! :>