One Last Day

31st December, last day of 2008.
Guess when it all comes to an end, you start to think about the beginning.

This year went past fast, perhaps way too fast.
I definitely had some great memories and happenings this year, but I've got to say. This year is indeed the worst so far throughout my 15 years.

From losing the drive to study, to skipping school, to getting into a hell lot of discipline problems, to constant meetings with my parents and VPs.

From losing people I love most, to drifting from closest buddies, to meeting newer friends, to realising where my piorities should lie.

From being so close to ruining my future, to dealing with money issues, to VERY chaotic family matters, to feeling lost in life for months.

From neverending CWOs, to hating school's sickening routine, to trying hard to make changes and mend broken pieces.

From knowing nothing in class, to a change of targets, to putting quite a bit of last minute effort for EOYs, to doing ohsobadly for EOYs.

From draggy Mastery programs, to interesting Symposium event, to gambling like crazy every single day, to Dance Intensive.

What a 2008.

2009 needs to be 33265823893 times better, esp with O's at stake.

Happy birthday, Jasmine.


HAHAHA, so sorry, didnt mean for this post to be so self reflecting and mundane.
Really appreciate all the wishes and gifts from y'all, love you all to the max! :DD





Yeah, i just cut my hair. Now, i have the other eye :)
Zhiting: Nice drawing ley!

Paralyse

OHMY, ITS THE LAST DAY OF DANCE TMR!

Hehe, Im so happy about it that I dont even feel like finishing homework with Zhiting tmr. Its the homework, not her :]
Missy, if you're reading this...

THIS IS THE 9364952638TH YOU DONT ANSWER MY CALL!!!!
WHY WHY WHY YOU ALWAYYYSSSS DONT ANSWER MY CALL!!!
):

Headed to Mango's sales yesterday with that silly girl, bought nothing for myself but a top for my mom.
Yeah, my mom. Dont shock ley :]
Pics after Silly Girl uploads.

xRoseRouge

All support kay!
& Rochelle insists that i emphasise that the very chio T&C above was her creation!
I know you very happy now rigghhhhtttt :]
&& Angie who helped out sosomuch with her expertise on Ljs :]:]

Here's the url: http://xroserouge.livejournal.com

Thanksthanksthanks!


OHYAH, EAT THIS Y'ALL!
I GOT MY REGISTRATION LETTER FOR MY IC ALR HORHORHOR!
Much love to all those silly idiots who've been teasing me about getting my IC next year, thanks ar :}

Last Christmas

Rochelle and Jasmine
Last Friday, a night to remember :)
(I just cant stop laughing, R!)

Christmas is ohsoboring.
And haha, im down sick again.

Next week would be study dates with Zhiting, i havent met her in a LONG LONG time :)
Next Friday also means school, i really hope classroom's on the 1st floor.
1 year of climbing 4 storeys has tortured me enough.
Imma start hunting for a new jacket cause Sec 4 means aircon classrooms!
No more feeling stuffy and hot, esp teachers' 'switch off the fans' fave tricks.
HAHAHA

YAY, NO DANCE TMR LEY! :DDDD

All i want for Christmas is... :}

Many thanks

And so, I finally got my friendster profile in tune after so long.
Do readd hons, lovelikethat@live.com!

I've got half a mind to change Msn too. Heard there's a way to instantly readd all your previous friends, but till Angie figure that out, Im clueless.
Tell me if you know kay! :]

Lastly, thanks thanks thanks so much Angie, for helping with my bloody friendster thats so insanely irritaing, heheh.
Supposed to leave her chio pic here, but my com refuses to upload so, I'll owe you missy!

Dance's here, Christmas's coming, Birthday's arriving, School's looking at me straight in the eye, killing me each coming day.

Thats so you, you know ):

Killer

I AM SO TIRED I WISH I COULD KILL YOU RIGHT NOW.
I WANNA TWIST YOUR LEGS AND ARMS SO YOU'LL KNOW HOW MUCH MY BUTT, LEG AND ARM MUSCLES HURT RIGHT NOW.

Journey home felt like a 30km marathon.

Glitter Doll

PICS :










Dance intensive started already, wasnt as bad as I thought though its REALLY frustrating to wake up early in the morning and head to school.
Headed to my condo with Pam and co. for a swim, wasted time together.
I know i look horrendous above because, I was having a rather bad day due to bedbugs/insect bites. I swear it was beyond itchy and painful, totally swelled up my legs.

OH AND SORRY PAMELA! Caused you to fall into the pool and waste $ to see a sinseh. IM SO SORRY! ):

The boys suggested i get the Calamine lotion, which fyi, helps a tad bit only. I still am bearing with all those sickening bites. Any suggestions on what to do?
I have no idea what bug bit me, have changed my bedsheet, cleaned my room ( alittle )..

Hello Dance, in 10 hours time!

Moonwalk

River Flows In You - Yiruma

Dont ask me why i got all classical here, I just found this unbearably sweet.
Said to be Edward's Lullaby in Twilight :)

Aww.

The far end

My com's being such an arse, and refuse to detect my memory card.
That means, no picax ):

Malaysia's nothing interesting, i spent half the timing listening to songs. Ate way too much there, instantly felt 5kg heavier when i came back to S'pore.
Class chalet was at a fucking ulu place. Its damn deserted, no shops/houses/buildings in sight for perhaps, 2km?
Was feeling SOOO bored that i slid into the pool with Zt, pulling the rest of my girls along later.

BBQ was..
stuffing my empty stomach with barbecued bread with butter mostly.

Life's so mundane, i usually dont do these quizes, but i really need to pass some minutes.

Tagged by : Yx :)

1)Believe in fate/destiny?
A little.

2)What do you want in your life now?
Money and happy life.

3)Do you tend to make relationship complicated?
R/s dont work for me, simple or complicated. I dont get the def. of complicated here.

4)Who always make you laugh?
Girlfriends, Stuart, Weide, Jk, all the silly jokers.

5)Who are you missing right nw?
Girlfriends ):

6)If you have to choose. Friend or Love?
Friends.

7)What emoticons do you like to show?
I like to hide emotions, so idk. Happiness maybe?

8)What is life to you?
Something that sucks to the centre of the Earth

9)If you have sumthing troubling u,what will you do?
Lie on bed/ look out of the window/stare into space

10)Who you admire(not like) the most?
Pretty and thin girls.

11)When is your birthday?
31st December.

12)what do you do when you are moody?
Cry.

13)Who is/are the people /person you trust most?
Rochelle, Zhiting, Steven, Xavier

14)Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
O.O?

15)If you have a dream come true,what will it be?
Be fucking rich and successful.

16)Do you believe in eternity love?
Nah.

7)What feeling do you love most?
Knowing that Im important in someone's life. Feels really nice, hehehe :D

18)What feeling do you hate most?
Moody.

19)Who care for you the most?
Friends.

20)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Friends & maybe family.

21)What do you do if nobody care for you any longer?
Wait to die.

22)What will you do if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
Break up.

I feel so LOL now. Anyone who's bored like me, just do. Helps pass time ;)

Daily dance practice this coming monday, this is so sad.

Miss me not

WILL BE AWAY IN MALAYSIA FROM TMR TILL 10TH DECEMBER.
FOLLOWED BY MY LONG-AWAITED CLASS CHALET FROM 10TH TILL 12TH DECEMBER.

I pray there's Internet connection (highly doubt) in Penang for me to come online. * crosses fingers*
Just in case there isint, Im bringing a hell lot of good books there to keep me company.

WILL MISS YA ALL, ALL MY CRAZY GIRLS AND SILLY GUYS :DDDD

Miss me too la hor :)

byebyebyebyebye!

Lost in broken pieces

I woke up this morning, eyes swollen from crying to sleep the night before.
I stared around, told myself I could start this day right and tried to force a smile.

Then i began to feel very sorry for myself.
Played 'Next plane home' onto a repeat mode and found myself tearing uncontrollably.

Just when I thought things might look up for once, life at home are seriously going downhill again, worse each coming day.

Pathetic or what? This suck big time ):

Fool again

No peektures today ):
Met Pamela, Franklin, Steven, Yuxiang and Jinjie for a Food Day.
Headed to Aston's for lunch then to suntec to slack.

Thanks Franklin and Steven for my early birthday gift!
You guys da best! :D

I hate buses, period.
We decided to have Punggol Nasi for dinner, waited for this 107 bus.
#^&)($&%#^&#()^$&@#@#!@
Waited for near 1 hour or so, realised that the bus only starts at 8pm.
Lol, everyone blank and seh-faced decided to cab instead :)
This is why i lovvveeee cabs (But they burn my money)

Slacked awhile more, had chat/gossip sessions.
Interesting day, tata for now :)

Things would have been different, i know this all too clearly.
I swear I was clueless, I never wanted to hurt you at all.
Please let me say Im awfully sorry, cause its the best I can do now ):

Stick up for me

I wanna kill people already.

Cause im dying feeling hot one minute and cold the next second ):

Drive me wild

Town yesterday with Zhiting and Luyi, great day :]

Love them both! (:

Met Franklin, Aloy and Yuxiang later on, wasted time together.

And I act smart again ( Why no one stop me one :( )

I was well yesterday, fit as a fiddle.

Had very spicy XXL cripsy chicken and a box of sushi for dinner.

Reached home and was immediately down sick, way worse than two nights ago.

Popped pills and tossed and turned in bed, hardly slept a wink.

Like that how to feast tmr! ))))):

Serve me right

I was having a bad day, cause i was down sick.
Luckily, I felt way better at night although my throat still hurt a little.

Not thinking of the consequences, I act smart and went to make iced milo.
Very thick and sweet, the way i like it.
Kay, I regret it so much now.
My throat hurts like fuck, and I barely have any voice left ):

Popped in a couple of Blackcurrant Numbing action Strepstils, did no more good than numbing my tougue.

How? ):

Freaky

(Click to enlarge)

I just found out smth, ultra freaky.
Okay, firstly, I swear i didnt photoshop the pics at all, did no hanky panky and so on.
And, I really dont mean to pinpoint/emphasise/scare anyone where the orbs are exceptionally close to them.

I just thought I could share this wierd stuff.

Alright, i've circled some stuff ( known as orbs) in the pics which Zhiting noticed and freaked me out.

I tell you, 15 years of my life, i never knew orbs existed.

It is believed to be Ghosts in the form of balls of lights.

Read here, if you wanna know more.
http://www.ghoststudy.com/a_what_are_orbs.html

Can it really be such a coincidence that the only 3 group photos we took one after another has such similar circles, and at all different places in the pics?

Zhiting's still sharing with me her power knowledge on it and I dont know how I'll live through tonight in my room.

Sweety, you see la! Now I cant sleep peacefully already~ ]:

Ray of Light

I know I superly lack on updates, but i wanted this post to be on a good tone. So i had to wait till I had a slightly better day :)

Kay, its been ages since Symposium but here's the picaxs.

Made loads of new friends from this event. Really worthwhile and interesting, beats the stuffy blazers and killing heels.

Kinda miss Symposium, somehow =/

Life's fine, nothing new. Everyone cherish their hollidays, byebye!

Love me not

Peektures!

Candid shot

<3

Headed to amk, got shoes, walked around ALOT.

Im so shagged now.

What the hell?

Eclipse of the heart

Life's sad without $.
Buy this, heartpain. Buy that, heartbreak.
Want eat good food, can only watch from outside the window and imagine that you're inside the restaurant savouring heaven.

Pretty much nothing new except Symposium and more gambling, lol.
And Yay, i've got more new friends in school. Really nice guys, i've realised :)
Ok, i've decided I wanna go swimming! Only in the night though, i dont want tans.
Mm, and shopping.
And day out with Rochelle to get interesting stuffs.
And find ways to rob a bank and get cash.

Oh, and i realised hollidays are passing real fast.
What, its mid-nov already? ):

Caught Madacascar 2 yesterday, pretty crappy show.
Dont go watch that, i even think 007 might be a better choice.

Arite, Ciaos. Im off to meet my cheeky girl to collect blazers :D

Whole new world

Gimme a nice little yellow flower, cause my life aint pretty at all now.

Twists

Fuck, bill came and blew.
Mom blew her top, Dad's gonna follow when he gets home.
Kns ):

Game of Life

Last night, I caught 'Whose line is this anyway' and couldnt even force out a laughter.
Finding it pointless, I switched it off and tossed and turned in bed till 4am.
I had a bad start today, was feeling so crappy till I started gambling with mates.
Gambling's damn addictive, and you just forget everything that's on your mind.
This is 33294690130 times better than drugs and smoking, swear to God.

So after a whole day of gambling, you realise that everything starts floating back into you mind again.
And now you have something extra to mull about - the $ you owe mates.

Last but not least, Im such a sucker at Cupid's games.

Swear it again

Bridging's fine, but Mastery is a total bore.
I have great urges to just shoot myself in the head whenever I think about the re-examinations after M.
I'll be a super failure to fail it again, but Mastery simply dont do much good for me =S
Its only the 2nd day, and i S.H.A.G.G.E.D to the max X . X

Cause I never wanna see you sad

Boos

Dad and me are officially having cold wars, aint good at all.
Brother must be having such a hard time conveying messages for us.
I cant imagine Dad and me ignoring each other, looking at differnt sides of the room and showing attitude right in front of the Principal/VP tmr.

What a sight ):

):

Hi life,
you suck.

Memoirs

Today marks the official last day of my Sec Three life.

Last 15mins were well spent taking photos and having last chats with classmates :)

Class 306'08

Serious poses

Fun shots

I love them all to death!

And my best girls in class (some of our super crazy shots) :]

Wierd as ever.

Mr Pah: Come, lets do an act-cute pose!

We were supposed to do an upskirt pose, but me and Cris backed out at the very last minute. That poor girl foolishly believed us and mantained this pose infront of 10 people? HAHAHA :)

I know you girls just love me laaaa~ Lol.

Spot Zhiting's super red face!

Yea, thats all! :)

I reaally hope most will come for the class chalet, its bound to be fun la.

Ohwell, Mastery starts coming tuesday. I feel so damn busy coping with bridging from 8 to 1pm, followed by Mastery till 5pm.

Good thing's that I can skip mastery whenever it clashes with Dance timings, but it also means i'll be uberuber tired lor ]:

Parents aint being a least bit of help, and Dad's meeting the VP on tuesday, sigh.

Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart

Diet Frenzy

Okay, Im going to lose weight, like serious now.
Ya, i know I've been saying this for like the 399273 time, and diets has always failed me ):
But this time, i wont stop till i see results kay!

Yep, gonna stick to a liquid diet..... ok la, plus only balado chips diet =S
I swear no other food! Cause only balado chips appeal to me now, and I get really disappointed when a day pass w/o Balado chips (today)

Plusplus! Its healthier choice, 40% less fat~
Ohya, i found out there's other flavours of this Maxi Cassava Chips, super tempting.
There's cheese, sausage, black pepper etc.
Pity I cant seem to find them anywhere in stores! I've searched NTUCs, Shop&Save, Cold Storage, all to no avail =/
If you find ever find it in stores, tell me ok, I'll love you to pieces!


Balado Chips the sex now :)

My legs hurt so much after dance, I'll get my great girls massage for me tmr! :)
Oh and Mastery aint that bad afterall, I'll see all those who got lucky there.

I was this close to getting retained.
Its the best news I've heard this month :)

Last but not least, i have a crazy friend who has nothing better to do.

Then, she decided to build a cooling fin for herself.

There's her great acheivement, i shall upload the video soon :D

Kokluyi, you're famous alr lo!

Dont bother reading

Results were utter disappointment.
I only want a pass ley, not some distiction or A1 A2.
Bloody hell, give me some 47, 48 marks. This feels so bad ok, a 30plus might have felt better -.-
Thanks so my awesome midyears, I ended up failing subjects that I passed in Eoys.

This feels so great.

Headed to Amk with my girls for Sushi, ended up catching 'Painted Skin' with Zhiting.
Show was good :)
Walked around and window shopped for quite a while, before heading home.

I started feeling really crappy, while thinking of millions of stuffs which didnt have solutions.
And I still dont know how to bring about the results to my parents.

Met some friends, mood was so drained that I couldnt even fake a smile.
Decided to leave them and go home, cause everyone was quiet for a min or so, not sure whether to talk or not.

ya, so here i am, dont even know what the hell I've been yapping about.
It has really been a long while since I felt as lifeless as this.

Oreo Bubbletea

OH SHITZXSZXXSSZZSX.

IM SOOO CRAVING FOR THE OREO SERIES BUBBLETEA , WHICH IS 100 BLOCKS AWAY FROM ME ):







In fact, Im a sucker for loads of things now.
Im dying for good icecream, anything oreo, balado chips(recent craze) and definitely my sour sweets which i have not eaten in like 747463 years.
No, dont tell me got what melamine cannot eat, i dont care alr loh :)

The coming Monday would be my most dreaded, ever.

I do need more than just luck and miracles.