Promiscuous

I have been losing track of things.
I have been insanely unwell till the doc had to prescirbe me some de-stress pills which have not shown results.
I miss the times when I was ahead of stuff, when everyone cared, when everything seemed possible.
When everything seemed easy.

Haha, Monday's good. Im missing P.E and boring lessons.




For one more day..

Believe

My heart skipped a beat when Mom came into my room right after she returned from Malaysia.

Mom: So where's the hamsters? (Rmb I said they werent too fond of pets)
Me: What hamsters?! *seh*
Mom: I dont know. Robin say you got.
Me: ROBIN?! How he even know? (Robin's my Malaysian cousin)
Mom: He read your blog then he tell me, also dont know what he saying.
Me: *sigh of relief* Nolah! No hamsters, no hamsters!

I'll be getting my hamsters on Wednesday, and I'll send a text to my parents then, i think.

Robin, I know you'll be reading this. You've always been smart. Im thinking that perhaps your brain got fried at that moment and decided to spill the beans. But still, thanks for the leak, I'll get even soon! Takecare there kaysx :]

Aw, its Chinese Prelim tmr already :s

Bits and Pieces

Today might be really good.
Just when I thought its 9am with hardly anyone online, I checked on something interesting and I couldnt help but just laugh a little.
Nice choice :] HAHA

*winks at zhiting

Its your love

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I'm seeing myself so differently
I didnt want to believe it then, but it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away, I never thought I'd say Im fine without you.

I had many doubts today.

On a good note, I did one of my favourite cheer-me-ups with Luyi and Zhiting. Its childishly dumb but never fails to make me ROFL.

(Pics have too much slippage and are effing silly so nothing will be up)

Its hollidays already!

Makes me wonder

Yay,Im getting two of Angie's large collection of hamsters.
What i love most is that hamsters are nocturnal and they can keep me company through long nights :]

Going to start hunting for cute houses and hamster supplies soon and officially house them in my room. My parents aint keen on pets so im not going to tell them till the day I bring them home!

Just saturday night/sunday morning I couldnt get to sleep and spent all night pondering about hamsters.

I still remember my first two hamsters with Rochelle. Cookie and Cream is without a doubt the cutest and loveliest hamsters ever, really. They became the class pets of 201 and we would take them out to play with in between lessons. One day, they just went missing. Me and Rochelle were so upset that we skipped lessons and spent the whole morning frantically searching for C&C in school.

Sadly, we couldnt find them and figured that they were probably eaten by cats or squashed by some random student in the school.

Shortly after, we got another 4 hamsters with Garey, Dwayne, (?) sorry i cant recall who else chipped in. Bought a giant house for them, 3 levels if Im not wrong.
I cant remember the names of the hamsters either, something like Wonderful and TightFit. LOL

Hamsters began to fight and tear each other throats apart, so this and that died. Neglected it when hollidays came and the last thing we knew was maggots swarming the dead hamsters when Rochelle and I checked on them during holliday's dance pracitce. Yeah, i bet all animal lovers are so going to screw me up now.

So, all these got me a little hesistant but I am going to take care of my new hamsters 1000000x more, swear!

P.S Buy Homecoming tickets from me ley ): I still have alot.

Put your records on

Here's the once a month entry.

Its crazy, its march already. I can still remember my birthday, Cny, everything. But its just this close to O's, holy shit.

March is hectic, preparing for an even hectic-er April.
March holliday's Chinese Prelims, not forgetting EVERY SINGLE DAY of Dance Intensive also. I am going to cry real bad if we dont get Gold with Honors.
School is tiring and long as ever, a normal day lasts from 7am till 7pm at least.

And so, April 22nd's the SYF compeition, 23rd/24th my ballet exams, 4th April is homecoming. This is so crazy.

I need a break, everything's draining me.

I am not happy anymore and I dont know why.
Sometimes i still wake up and find myself missing you.
Sometimes i wonder where the hell all my friends went.
Sometimes i miss them and those times so damn much.
Sometimes i wish I can lie in bed the whole day and not feel anything.
But i cannot because there is so much to do with so little time.

I wonder why i wake up feeling like I've been stabbed right in my heart.
And I cannot cry anymore, because I only know how to smile.