Last words

I used to feel so bad and awful inside for everything that went wrong with us. Swear to God, it was unintended & you know it.
I hoped so much for you, for everything to go right and good, to live life even better cos you deserve so much more.
I've asked every possible person to look out for you, so someone still cares when I'm not around.

I still remember what was real and good, and I hope you remember the real me though I seem like a total bitch now.
You know my heart broke when I begged you to remain friends but you couldnt live with that.
And I've moved on and I wished you did too, so there was always this hope that someday we'll still be friends again.

But everything I hoped for you, everything, is gone and over. Now that you've gone to the extremes and drew a clear cut between us. I don't know why but that was a wrong move my friend.

Picture perfect memories

Its been so long since I updated and life has just been nothing much but a whirl. School, bed, touch training, friends and B.

But life has been better cos I've found a new happiness, a sunshine to light me up during the darkest days. & I thank God for that, for you.

In lala land still and I swear I know how I'm faring in studies but the thought of picking myself up drains me, like I really dont know where to start. Working on PW only recently cos I never want to pull my group mates down.

I feel like I'm drifting from friends I love so much like A and S and I feel so bad cos I'm not there when they need me most or I dont know what to say to put a smile on their faces. I never was a great friend but I'll try harder.

Other than B, life is pretty much a mess and I've only found Amanda who relates to 'Put it all behind and sleep forever'. No I am not suicidal, it's not that.
But I'll be back on track after the June hols, just watch and see.

You don’t just automatically love someone. you have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can’t be jealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable.

We're going to be unbreakable baby.

Nobody knows

You just don't look at yourself, do you?

The weather is killing me everyday, JC torments me everyday, I get irritated by * in school everyday, I feel fatter everyday, I want to stay home everyday.

House

Yesterday was awesome food, awesome scenery, awesome time with B at House @ Demsey Hill. EVERYONE SHOULD GO THERE AND TRY IT SOME TIME. Everything is fantastic there!



I think its a whites hang out cos there were alot of ang mohs there and they are the most gorgeous people in Singapore. The ambiance is perfect.




I dont know why but the menu is quite erotic with deep sea threesome etc. And its funny cos B made a fool out of himself when he said to the waiter 'Can I have a one metre long sausage?'
Really epic!


The one metre long sausage.



B had Lobster Linguine. (Y)



And I had this American something, I forgot what's its called. But it's gooood!





And they had quotes all around the toilet, this is one of them. Gents are called cockledoole and ladies are called pussycat there. I love the concept of the restaurant.

B wants me to say that the Mohito(?) [some alcoholic mint drink] sucks but I thought it was fine :)
Will be going there to try out everything! Everyone should too!

Love will find you

Nothing cheers me like roses do.
Thank you S.

Pressure

DID ANYONE WATCH THE POKEMON MOVIE? I CANT BELIEVE I CRIED LIKE A BABY DURING THIS SCENE WHEN I WAS LIKE, EIGHT? HAHAHA EPIC MEMORY REALLYYYYY.

Rotting in school since 9am, skipped everything and Amanda just went ' OHYA WE HAVENT HAD A SINGLE LESSON YAAAA' Epic number 2.

Shaun and cup walker in one hour

Bring me the Sunshine

When we were supposed to be doing History project















HAHA okay but we did get something done in the end.
Y'know, I really dislike school. I wake everyday & ask myself what the hell I'm doing in jaycee :<

I havent studied a shit or completed any tutorial. My best yet acheivement was 7 math questions and Mr foo was freaking amazed. I think he said something like the world is changing/crashing, i dont know.

I still have not started on PI.

But I'm already counting down till June holidays hehe. Shaun calls me Retainee and he's gay.