Airplanes

Favourite song at the moment.

Today wasnt good at all.
In fact, every single day in school is a nightmare. Y'know how some people make fleeting statements bout how hate their schools once in a while? Believe me when I tell you this: I REALLY REALLY HATE MY SCHOOL, PERIOD.

Everyone says give it some time, that I'll slowly adapt into a new enviroment blahblah. To hell with it, 6 months into JC and I still hate it as much as the first day of school.

I used to dislike Xinmin, but deep down, I enjoyed every single day of school. Every day was fresh and different. I absoulutely loved my class, my friends and most of the teachers.

I think anyone can tell by now that I'm a person who hates changes.
I still cannot accept that Jaycee is NOTHING like my secondary school.

JC life is nothing but mundane. School is a freaking routine, I dont know what I'm not doing the same every fucking day.
Teachers are extreme bitches except one or two (how pathetic is that) and I dont like anyone there except for a bunchful.

I still wake up every morning fighting to resist any excuse not to come to school, not because I'm lazy or unwilling to learn, but because its boring and a plain waste of my time.

Oh and I'm still in awe that lecturers consider reading out handouts as lectures. For one whole hour, they do not add or take away a single word from the study notes we have. I feel like I'm back in Kindergarden attending reading session, do they not get the point that we can actually can read word for word ourselves and do not need them to repeat EXACTLY what's on the paper?

So please agree with me that it's a waste of time or is it me just going insane?

I know that the school is not obliged to make life enjoyable nor do they give a fuck about me. But I just need to get this out of my chest, cos everyday in school feels like I've been stabbed a thousand times.

I've never dreaded anything more.

The worst part is there is absoulutely nothing I can do but just suck it up and continue going to this dead school until it drives me crazier.

Okay done whining, I'm out.