Shooting Star

I always find myself being comforted by someone else on my worst days.
I wish it could be you.

But the truth is you're there & I'm here.
Its not your fault.
I cannot help but wonder how different everything would be if you were here instead.

Do you remember

You'll never read this anyway.

Suddenly, everything came pouring back again and I couldn't help thinking where we would be right now if I hadnt chose him over you. I was dumb, and it was a foolish, honest mistake because you truly meant everything to me then.
I miss us doing everything together, late night calls, movies at your house, studying..
And I've never fought harder for anyone to come back to me.

I've been through hell and back, into relationships and out, but you were the only one who stayed around. The only one through four years. You're my biggest regret so far and I guess you'll continue to be because I don't think I'll ever forget you.

Sometimes I miss you so much, I wished you never left my side.
But deep down I know, you were better off without me.

Thank you for being the best friend I ever had.

Actually I miss a couple more girls.
Somewhere, somehow, despite all the shit we put each other through years ago, I do not remember them when I think of you. I only remember the crazys, the laughters, the tears, the talks and the foolishness.
I still love you.

Marshmellow Fluff

June, you're passing too fast. Way too fast.

Permanent Scar

Only the best team in the world, with all our secret moves and jokes on field.

Born this way

I can never study at home, ever.

Perhaps late night studying at home, it works better. But usually I'm tired by 1am now.
Gone were the days where I could sleep at 3 or 4am and manage to wake at 5.30am for school.

Woes

I have a fifty dollar and increasing library book fine.
I lost the book probably 20 odd, and overdue fines are 20 odd too.
Everyday I think of going to pay the fines that accumulate with each day but then I also think of finding the book too. Cos if it's not there, it must be somewhere.

And this is going to continue for months. I should just fuck it and pay everything when school reopens.

$50 = 3 times cab fare (non peak hour)
2 times cab fare (peak hour)
Lunch for 10 days in school
6 Venti Starbucks cofffee
Heartbreak

Tears well up

Sonia who you just met a day ago, according to you was the hottest girl in the world, so perfect you stuttered when she spoke to you. I acknowledge the fact that her looks were beyond amazing and was fine with everything till

"If Jasmine wants you back and Sonia wants you, who would you go for?"
"Thats a tough one."
"Huh, you really don't know who to choose?"
"I mean yeah la, it's difficult what."

Then you say I'm sorry.
And I wonder how a year of memories could even begin to compare to a pretty sight at night.

You constantly speak of how much you're going through, how much you're suffering.
What about the hurt I feel?
I am merely human.