Saturday, May 19, 2012

Before I go to sleep

I love this weather, now at 5.48pm.
My bed is warm and fuzzy, but not too warm.
I feel like everything revolves around me and everyone is looking out for me.
I feel at peace and I can fall asleep instantly even if I'm not sleepy.
I have nothing worrying my mind.

But at night, it is different.

I am fighting my fears.
I feel completely alone and I am alone.
I sing happy songs in my head to keep me optimistic.
I think back at the times where I had someone beside me in bed but no, not tonight.
Somewhere in the midst of thoughts and paranoia, I fall asleep.
It's rare that I get a good night's rest.

And in the morning, I wake up early to fight another day's battle.

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