Look how they shine for you

I'm back to this pathetic feeling again, it's a vicious cycle.

I'm tired of living up to expectations. Living and doing every single thing because I'm expected to & not because I want to.

I'm tired of even thinking twice, three times, before I blog something in case I create a misunderstanding. I should not even need to explain what is on my blog because it's my means of release. What is the point of filtering? Haters are still gonna hate.

I'm tired of doing things just so that people don't get hurt, just so that people around me are satisfied. What about me? Am I supposed to do things your will just so that everyone is contented at the expense of myself?

I'm tired of looking at the all pretty people and smart asses. I start to feel shitty after.

I'm tired of studying fucking nationalism, integration, macroeconomic issues and Wide Sargasso Sea.

I'm tired of chasing some friends down.

I'm tired of some of their bullshit.

I'm tired of feeling tired. Of everything.
I Just Want To Be Left The Hell Alone.