Summer Romance

Math was so HORRIBLE.
I only managed a 3 marks question which I had a hundred thousand plus digit answer (probably incorrect) and the rest of the paper were spaces left for corrections.

The other papers were not good as well. I am officially screwed.
Last minute studying does not work in Jaycee, period.

Wallflower

I get sour happy on nights you're having fun clubbing and dancing, while I'm stuck with books and exams on my mind. Dead jealous at the opportunity of a break whenever you need one.

I get dreadful happy when I know you're off chasing your dreams so far away from me & living a wonderful fresh experience while I'm left behind still trying to figure out my future that lies ahead.

No I aint complaining, just drifting into thoughts, thinking deeper.
You're still the one that I'll never regret :)

Paint Rainbows

Stings right where it hurts most when I know I'm the fattest person on the planet, my close friend admits to me that I've indeed gained weight, and back to a shitload of self-criticism.

I have been crankiest and craziest bitch these days but B takes all of it silently.

Thanks love, you're the best.

For glitter not you

I am looking forward to tomorrow. To Amanda, to amazing stories of friends who just came back from New York etc, to fun and laughter, & to you.

I always look forward to you *big smile*

Last day of fun tomorrow I swear.

Time to stop eating.
Time to start studying.

Distaste

My weight gain is extreme and I am disgusted with myself.

N E E D T O L O S E W E I G H T F O R T H E H U N D R E D T H T I M E. Period.

Rage

M, I really dislike you at times, as much as you dislike me. I was having a great day and all it takes is one sentence from you to make my blood boil and upset me so much.
I wish you could go back to just leaving me alone, I really need that.

Please dont blame me if I shout at you, You've just ruined my day and everything is getting on my nerves now.

Hide up above

If I walk, would you run?
If I stop, would you come?
If I said you're the one, would you believe me?

From the top

Everyone is so full of shit.

To you:
If I hadnt blogged about me, I probably wouldnt have heard from you in another 10 years or so. Now, all of a sudden, you're calling and sympathising me in my situation, asking me out and feeling worried for me. I dont know why you're doing this or feel like you need to do this, but no this is not the kind of friends I need in my life. Lay off, thanks for the 'love'.

I need my friends to make me feel sane again, you know who y'all are! ( S, S, A, B and A) <3

Us against the World

Ever had someone that instantly lifts up your mood no matter how bad your day went? Or someone who you call at any time of the day, even at 3 in the morning, just to tell him this dream you had and he listens and soothes you at the same time?
Someone who you know belongs and will stay by you through ups and downs, fight and make up within half hour, buys you everything that makes you happy.

I found that someone.
I have never wanted something this badly, never held on to something this tightly.

But life happens and nothing ever really turn out the way you want them to.
No fairytale endings, no miracles, nothing like that.

Life greedily takes my most precious boy away in 6 months, for 4 years.
Without fail, I pray every night that things would never come to this, that you'll be around.
So there was always this small hope that a tiny miracle would come by.

Reality smacked me right in the face today.
What kills me is that I cannot do anything but watch you walk away.

I've lost enough best friends and loved ones but I guess it goes on.

I'll wait for you as long as it takes and I'll fight so hard to keep this alive although we're thousand miles apart.

I love you, always and forever my beautiful boy.

Love the chaos

I would practice diving for touch rugby all day long with this :)