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It will rain

If you ever leave me, baby, 
Leave some morphine at my door 

Cause it would take a whole lot of medication  

To realize what we used to have, 

We don't have it anymore.

There's no religion that could ever save me

No matter how long my knees are on the floor, oh

So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making

To keep you by my side  

And keep you from walking out the door.

Cause there'll be no sunlight 

if I lose you, baby 

There'll be no clear skies

if I lose you, baby

Dear S

I have been the worst friend possible.

Even on the last day of your freedom, I didn't get to meet you.

And I'm so sorry but don't hate me for it.

I'll make it up, I swear.

So many chances to have met you and something always came up.

I know I could have tried harder and put in a little more effort.

Even after you and F broke up, I haven't really been there, nor met you since.

I'm sorry again.

I have your gifts with me though.

I hope this new journey will be good and lively for you, meeting new friends and accomplishing tough challenges.

I do hope to see you out soon.

Till then, all the best and take care of yourself.

I love you best friend.

Heartbeat

I have a secret aim that motivates me now.

I'm not sure if I'm ready to let everyone know and I probably won't get it.

But I have not had something to look forward to in a long time.

I'm going to try.

Sparkle

One more resolution for myself before I forget.

Actually, I always had this in mind already.

Should I end any relationships this year, I am going to remain single for the entire 2012.

For myself. For my academics.

Luck

School's in a day's time and I'm wondering how 50 days of holidays could go by so fast.

I'm not prepared for the new year.

It has been for fourth consecutive sleepless night and I have no idea why I have trouble sleeping.

Something is bothering me but I don't know what.

Feeling feverish and coughing every 5 minutes now while fretting over the five essays I have yet to do.

My only consolance is that this year might be one of the best years in my life, but it hasn't been so far.

2012

2011 passed, ending off with a bang on my birthday.
2011 had been rocky.
But I found myself, and I found much needed directions in life.

2010 had me completely vulnerable at the loss of B going overseas and retaining.
I was so sure I wasn't going to make it. But I did.
And I did well.

From retaining to a letter of good progress for making it into the top 20% of my cohort.
That was exactly what I needed for motivation, drive and encouragement.
And to prove to people I was still capable of producing results.

It took me a longer JC route and I honestly still detest every fucking day in Nyjc.
But that extra year paid off.
For those of you who believe I had to do well after the second year of JC, screw you. Studying is extremely difficult in JC and I practically never studied a day in 2010 (which was dumb) So all the topics were literally brand new to me.

From handing up only one sheet of paper for math promos in 2010 to being the 90th+ percentile in literature and history in 2011, academically wise, 2011 was lovely.

There were a hell lot of ups and downs with B in 2011.
It was extremely hard and we both gave up countless times but managed to find each other back.
We made it so far and I still can't believe it.
2012 will prove even harder but going through this have made me firmly believe that what's yours will find its way back to you.

2011 had me making new friends in my class.

Our clique- Kamalia, Keefe, Michelle, Shiwei, Syahirah, Zhiqing, Chingyan and Phan, is truly unique. I have never seen a clique without conflicts and backstabbing and bitching.
But we are like that.
All of us are very close but not clingy. We can be angsty, bitchy, snappy at each other for a while but would definitely get over it in a hour so no bad feelings or grudges are held for more than a day.
They are the exact people I need for a screwed up place like Nyjc.

Kamalia is loud and funny.
Keefe is nonchalant and retarded.
Michelle is sweet and cheerful.
Shiwei is perverted yet loyal.
Syahirah is hardworking and committed.
Zhiqing is quirky and quiet.
Chingyan is studious and sporty.
Phan is happy go lucky and pretty.

And I love each one of them cos I can talk to anyone, depending on my moods.

2011 also reminded me of how much I miss Amanda and Shaun, because I retained and they have A levels bombarding their schedules.
What's amazing is that I never have to text them 24/7 to feel close but we are there for each other 24/7. And both of them know that I have their backs no matter what.

2011 also had me meeting a new friend, Javier.
He is an uncanny resemblance of X in terms of character and personality.
He had my back through my toughest promo period and is just a very sweet person.

2011 had been memorable and paved the way for me to follow through in 2012 in terms of my friends, beliefs, relationship and studies.

2012 did not start off as well as I hoped.
A minor fight with B and I was extremely ill during the first two days of 2012.
Even as I type this, I am burdened by a pounding headache.

I made a few birthday wishes cos I had several cakes and I pray each one of them comes true this year.